January 30th, 2022 (Updated March 26th, 2022 and August 4th, 2022)
Sometimes, amazing things must come to an end. And that is exactly what happened today. This blog is not the place to go into detail about it, but if you know, then…well…you know. Actually…you know what…I'll go into some detail. After a year and 12 days of pure happiness and love, my girlfriend and I broke up for various reasons.
I edit this post almost two months later because, well…some things have happened that have turned this mutual breakup into a heartbreak. But while it has been tremendously difficult for me, I am working towards finding new happiness.
So just remember two things: One, while you may be devastated to reach the end of something special, it's actually much more of a new beginning than you think. And two, people do change, will do things you don't understand, and will unintentionally break your heart. The key is to do whatever you can to move on.
The biggest changes in life seem to occur at the busiest of times, in the strangest of ways, and under the most interesting of circumstances. January 30th, 2022 will be one of those days forever engrained in my memory :)
I update this post again, in August 2022, to say that I am doing so much better now. The past 7 months have really, really, really been difficult for me, but each and every day I work on moving past this heartbreak. I am so grateful for all my true friends and family for helping me along the way.
I do not want to go into the details about what happened publicly, but I can talk a little bit about how I am learning to move on. Here's the secret: it's all about changing your perception. Do you constantly think, "I'll never forgive her, yet I still love her, yet she broke my heart, and I'm so depressed and I can't figure out why she did that, and I just wish I could talk to her and fix things and be friends and ahhhhh!" Or, do you say, "You know, we once loved each other, but she's a different person now and that's okay. I'm going to wake up each day and say, 'today's a new day where I can find happiness,' and eventually I'll get there." Changing your perception this way does not come easy, and you can't decide to do it overnight, but it definitely comes with time and patience.
This is just the beginning of my journey. By no means am I over this yet, nor do I think I ever will be, but I am a heck of a lot better than I was even just a few months ago.
Anywho, I guess I'll see ya in the next blog post.
If you're lost and alone, or you're sinkin' like a stone
May your past be the sound of your feet upon the ground